"Everyone deserves the chance to fly"

17 April 2006

i need to take the lead

i love ballroom dancing. i always have. even as a kid i remember watching the ballroom dancing competitions on TV and thinking that they were the most graceful and good looking people i'd ever seen. i always wanted to be like them. as i got older i started taking dance classes, ballet, tap, jazz lyrical, tango, and waltz, but i never took my love of dancing beyond that. a few classes a week.

oh sure, i talked about taking ballroom with certain friends of mine, jesse, my sister, nicole, leslie, ana, but it never happened. why?

i just saw the movie Take The Lead on easter sunday with my sister. not only was it a good movie, but it also got me to thinking... why did i quit taking dance classes? i could blame it on moving to california and not having a studio near by, but i don't think that is true. i could say that because i'm not actively pursuing a career in acting anymore i don't need the dance classes, but that's not true either. there was quote in the movie...

"i'm not made to be a dancer."
"do you enjoy dancing?"
"yes."
"then you were made to be a dancer."

it really hit home... i mean, i don't have to be trying to be an actor to take dance classes. if you really enjoy something, then TAKE THE LEAD, go for it, do what you love, never give up on something you love, because when you least expect it, that one thing that you love, could be your salvation.

12 April 2006

i am going to die

there is a web site:

the death psychic

and it will tell you how you are gonna die. my fortune (or misfortune) was:

"While walking to your car after visiting a friend in a rather bad part of town, you are caught in the middle of a drive-by shooting. You are hit several times in the chest. You watch as blood pours from your body as you fall to the ground. You die from massive blood loss."

well, this was a little vague for me so i decided to do a little research to get an answer to one question that was bothering me...

1) how old would i be?
answer -
the toronto star has a good article on the average age of drive by shooting victims and one part the stood out was this: "The average age of all victims is 31. The average age of shooting victims is 26." well, i'm already 26, so that means i got about 5 years left. however, upon closer reading i discovered that the main focuz of the article was young black men who LIVED in bad areas. well, since i am neither black NOR do i LIVE in a bad neighbourhood (remember, i was only visiting a friend who lived in a scetchy area) i figured that my chances MUST be better, right? AND as of right now, the worst area of town that my friends live in is the pothole filled road off of vineland and magnolia in north hollywood, so that must mean that i've beaten the odds? right??

of course i've seen all 2 seasons of Dead Like Me and i do know that death has a pre-set time and place when it will happen, so IF what my fortune said is true, it is HIGHLY more likely that, me being gay, i will not be visiting a friend, but a "hook-up" in a scetchy part of town... in which case, i better enjoy these last 5 years cuz that is WAY more likely :)